| 1.09.2007 |
| Tammy Andrews |
Tammy Andrews leaned back in her chair and stretched her 5 foot 6 inch body as far as she could. She had been sitting at her desk for over two hours. Her light beige face was half red from the frustration that she was feeling towards her friends. She was not even sure if they were her friends. She blinked her light brown eyes and stared at the computer screen. She tried to think of what to write, but nothing came to her at that moment.
Tammy brushed a string of her brown hair back behind her ear. She was tired. Every since lunch with her friends, Angela, Helen, Mary, and Karen, she hadn't spoken to any of them. She was sure that they were all mad at her. Tammy didn't even really care at this point. They were all gossips and they needed to be on the altar on Sunday. That was not going to happen because she was the only one that thought they needed to be delivered from their gossiping spirits.
Tammy thought about Highway of Glory Non-Denominational Church. She wondered what the pastor, Bishop Anthony Powers would think if he knew that several of his members were out gossiping about the fellow pastors in town. "He probably would not think much because he was one of her sources," Tammy thought. Tammy either verified or got her information from her pastor. How had she gotten caught up in this whole mess?
No one knew that Bishop Powers was Tammy's third cousin or something like that. The Bishop never made it point to mention it, so Tammy did not mention it either. They had met at a family reunion a few years ago. Once Bishop found out that Tammy had just moved to Collier City, he invited her to the church. He had preached such a dynamic sermon at the family reunion that Tammy went to his church. It was wonderful at first. The services were on fire. The choir sung the glory of the Lord down from Heaven. Bishop preached sermons that convicted you to the core. Lately, though, Tammy very rarely felt anything when she was at church. After Tammy had gotten in good with the Cafe Sisters (as she called her friends that she gossiped with), she had not felt right about a lot of things in her life.
Tammy shook her head. That caused that annoying strand of hair to fall from her ear. She put the hair back behind her ear. Tammy took a sip of her coffee and went back to typing the letter to God that she was working on.
Lord,
Forgive me for being a gossip. I am tired of being a gossip. I am tired of gossiping. I don't know how to quit. I cannot seem to quit either. I am tired of feeling like I feel. I want to stop gossiping. I need Your help. Please help me.
Tammy paused for a second. She heard her grandmother's voice say… "Lord, put a bad taste in her mouth whenever she starts to gossip. Tammy smiled and wrote some more words in her letter.
Whenever I go to gossip, Lord, put a bad taste in my mouth. Lord, I am tired of being friends with the Cafe Sisters, especially if they are going to keep gossiping. Lord, help me to break those ties without any mess. You know how they are. They will be mean and vindictive. I just want out of this mess. Help me, please.
-Tammy
Tammy read over the letter once more. It sounded good to her. She printed it out and put it in her Bible. She prayed silently that God would answer her prayer quickly.
Tammy saved the letter to God that she had just written. She opened up a new document and started typing a letter to the Cafe Sisters.
Dear *,
I am writing this letter to do several things. First, to apologize for telling all of you all's business the other day. I should not have done that.
Second, I no longer want to be a part of this group. Of the past few weeks, hanging out with you all is not fun. All we do is talk about people. I am tired of talking about people. It was fun at first, but now it is just down right wrong. I am at fault, too. I should have never told you all the things I told you. It felt good to be the one that knew everyone's business, but now, I do not even want to know my own business much less anyone else's business. I took a long look at myself in the mirror and I did not like what I saw. This will probably cause me all kinds of trouble, but I am willing to take that chance because I want my soul to be saved.
I wish only the best for you all. I mean no harm by this letter. I will not cause you all any harm. It is my hope that you all will cause me no harm. I have asked God to forgive me. I am asking each of you to forgive me.
Be Blessed,
Tammy
Tammy opened her email program. She sent out four individual emails; one to each of the Cafe Sisters. She was not sure how they were going to react, but she was half expecting something crazy to happen.
Tammy went to the restroom. She needed a break. She had put so much effort into writing her letters that she needed a moment to relax. The walk to the restroom seemed longer than usual. Her feet seemed to get heavier with each step. She walked by her manager. Her manager smiled at her. Tammy forced herself to smile back at her manager. Tammy did not want her nosey manager bothering her right now. Tammy shook her head as she thought, "I am surrounded by nosey gossiping people. This does not make any sense. Lord, I need help."
Tammy finally made it to the restroom. She walked into one of the stalls. She leaned up against one of the walls. She wanted to slide down and sit on the floor, but she did not know how clean the floor was. Tammy's body gave way to the weight that she felt. Before she knew it, she was sitting on the floor with her head in her hands, crying harder than she had ever cried. Tammy sat on the restroom floor and cried for over 5 minutes. When she finished, she felt so much lighter. She even felt happier. Tammy was glad about that.Labels: Gossip |
| posted by Me @ 2:12 PM |
| All scripture used here are found in the
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